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Anyways. As you can see from my post just a while ago -- my day hasn't been going very well, and neither have my life been quite well. Things ruin my day, people are the nicest and I'm not beign sarcastic. Everything is fine and fine and fine and lovely and even reallygood in school but no, something has to appear and ruin my day. [ shakes head sadly ] I don't know. I really don't know anything anymore.

I'm falling apart , you know? I'm barely seeing the friends I love anymore, or this week, at least, because of Kiwanis on the 16th. And I don't have any classes with any of them. Promises are broken, things have to be mended. Impressions may worsen, I'm breaking my own code of conduct, and everything's just horrible.

And no, I'm not here to talk about how horrible my life is, and I don't expect you to be sympathetic or read all the way up here because, hell, who cares? You know? I'm tired. School's ever so happy, and my classes are nice though code of conduct is being severed. And NO, I am not emo! Say anything about that and I will personally killyou. I don't tolerate any comments about me that involve being a 'princess', because my brother calls me that when I ask my mother for something. I am not a stuck up snobby bitch that asks for whatever they want and I don't whine when I don't get the things I want. My brother's just different. And emo, because I am NOT . I don't slit myself, I don't do stuff to myself that involve being in pleasure when under pain or whatever torturous things. I don't like pain or getting hurt or being involved in something that will get me killed. And gay/lesbian because I AM NOT ! I'm not saying it's wrong or anything cause I know some people out there are like that so I have nothing to say on that matter other than I will never be attracted to the same gender!

I'm tired. And down-trodden. It's like I'm malfunctioning.

P.S.: By the way -- my Break-fetish is ending, or at least the infinite obsession over him. I still love him, yes .